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I´m so tired of winter time even when it´s spring...I need this kind of look ASAP

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Sinking Sun...

Borrowing words...

Que minha solidão me sirva de companhia. Que eu tenha a coragem de me enfrentar. Que eu saiba ficar com o nada e mesmo assim me sentir como se estivesse plena de tudo.

―Clarice Lispector

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Everyday trying to keep this mantra in my head and heart!

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Reminiscing the day I went to a movie premiere, met in person one dear friend I´ve only have met online and of course saw Robert Pattinson in flesh and blood :)

36 Blues

I think I´m having some kind of "36 blues"...
After one week of my birthday, reality is sinking in. I´m a nice, not so bad looking and independent 36 years old woman. But the truth is that I´m still learning how to live and how to enjoy the good things I have instead of focusing only on the things I don´t.
It´s a hard path, it´s tough doing it. It´s easy to go back at the old ways and feeling sad and lonely all over again.

My life isn´t what I expected too be when I was younger. I thought I would be married and with 3 kids by now...I don´t know about the kids but I do know about the partner in life, a man with whom I could share a life with. I want that, I truly want that!

This week I joined Tinder (Yes, I´m getting to that point in life). A scream for help, another try to meet someone, another desperate measure to, maybe, find a guy. But I don´t think this kind of stuff is for me. I think most men in that app are only there for a one night stand, a casual thing and I´ve "Been there, done that" and it´s not what I´m looking for any more. As my dear fiction friend Carrie Bradshaw once said “I’m looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can’t-live-without-each-other love.” and i´m scared that that kind of love isn´t there for me, in fact I´m scared that any kind of love isn´t there at all...

Most of my days, I´m quite contempt with what I have in life. A job I love, my own space, dear friends and real good parents. I even been fortunate enough to travel a bit and enjoy that exquisite pleasure of embracing new cities and different cultures.
But then, that annoying hole of emptiness gets settled inside my heart and soul and I have these kind of moments. These moments of sadness and disbelief.

Today is one of that moments...I feel lonely...

Just a quote to get by...

We’re all a little weird. And life is a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness—and call it love—true love.

Robert Fulghum, True Love

Where is my weird other half? Some days I just think it´s not going to happen to me...

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Sofro de Heliophilia......