Bipolar once more...

Looking at some pics of me in summer of 2013 makes me sad...and yes it's a bit futile but I looked good! Weight loss and all that stuff.
Now I look at actual pictures and all I can see is someone fat,and that it's a miracle that someone can take a cool photograph of me.
And the scary part is that my friends and even my family say that I'm not fat at all and I think that they are only being sweet.

Of course I always say and think that I'm going to start a new healthy meal plan and then I go to the pantry and eat some chocolate or chips... I just don't have the strenght!